"HI" "MOM" "MISS"/"LOVE" YOU/"NEED" YOU,MY"GOD" IT'S GOING ON 6-MONTHS. WELL ME AND "DAD" RICHARD ARE "ALOT" CLOSER,WHICH IS "GREAT" WE ARE "ALL" WE HAVE LEFT OF OUR "FAMILY" "WOW" TIME HAS REALLY "FLOWN" BY-"UNBELIEVABLE" REALLY-BUT IT IS SO......"GOD" "I LOVE YOU MOM" THIS IS SOOOOOOOO HARRRRRRRRD FOR ME,YOU NOT BEING IN THIS "WORLD" ANY-MORE. I "KEEP" ON THINKING YOU ARE ON VACATION SOME WHERE AND ARE COMING BACK TO ME/DAD,I "WISH" WITH "ALL" OF MY "HEART" THAT THIS WAS SO.. I STILL AND HOPE I WILL "ALWAYS" REMEMBER THE "GOOD-OL'-DAYS" WHEN YOU WERE SO "VIBRANT" AND "BEAUTIFUL" YOU WERE/ARE ALWAYS "BEAUTIFUL" BUT TOWARDS THE ENDING OF YOUR LIFE IT WAS VERY VERY "HARD" FOR ME TO SEE YOU "FADING" AWAY,BECAUSE OF THE "CANCERS" "CHEMO,ETC,YOU WERE SO "LITLE" AND WHEN I WOULD SEE YOU OR HUG/TOUCH "YOU" YOU WERE SO "BONEY" "MY" BONES "MOM" IT "HURT" ME SOOOO MUCH,BUT I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT THEN "NOTHING" NOW,I "TRULY" MISS YOU AND "ALWAYS" WILL,I "CRY" SO "MUCH" WHEN I WRITE TO YOU,IT "HURTS" "BAD" I HAVE "LOST" SO MUCH IN THIS "LIFE" I AM "REALLY" SURPRISED THAT I AM STILL HERE ? I DON'T KNOW WHY ?I "FEEL"THERE ARE A "FEW" THINGS LEFT TO DO TO COMPLETE MY "MISSION" UPON THE EARTH,I SHOULD GO BACK TO "CHURCH" BUT AM "SCARED" KINDA BUT I "HATE" BEING THERE "ALONE" ALTHOUGH THE "ONLY" "TRUE" REASON TO BE THERE IS FOR "JESUS" AND "NOTHING" ELSE,THAT I KNOW,BUT IT IS STILL VERY HARD TO BE THERE ALONE,I ALL-MOST MADE IT THERE THOUGH,HAD MY "FOOT" IN THE DOOR WHEN YOU FIRST "PASSED" I "BELIEVE" I JUST NEED MY "PERSONAL" TIME WITH YOU/JESUS TRYING TO"COPE" WITH THIS "TREMENDOUS" LOSS OF YOU,THERE'S GOT TO BE SOME WAY THAT I CAN "COPE" BETTER IN THIS LIFE,I JUST KNOW THERE HAS TO BE SOMEWHERE/SOMEHOW/SOMEDAY,JUST LIKE WAITING FOR THE "CONFORMATION" FROM YOU TO ME,I "KNOW" IT'S GOT TO HAPPEN,I JUST HAVE TO "WAIT" AND "BELIEVE" THAT "GOD" WILL LET YOU,I "KNOW"HE WILL,THE "DOVES" ARE COING THIS MORNING OUTSIDE BY THE APARTMENT,AND OTHER BIRDS ARE CHIRPING AND CARRYING ON DUE TO "SPRING" POPPING UP AGAIN,YOUR "FAVORITE" SEASON,WELL ROBERT JUST CALLED JUST LIKE WHEN WE USED TO TALK ON THE PHONE-"ALWAYS" HE WOULD CALL AND WE'D LAUGH OR SOMETHING ABOUT IT,IT'S KINDA COOL. WELL I GUESS I WILL SIGN OFF FOR NOW,"I LOVE YOU AND "ALWAYS" WILL,I "MISS YOU SO MUCH" IT "REALLY" TEARS ME UP,I "WONDER" IF THIS WILL "ALWAYS" BE THIS "BAD" OVER YOU ? I "HOPE" NOT REALLY,CAUSE IT MAKES ME "ILL" FROM "CRYING" TOO MUCH,I NEED TO "HEAL" IT WILL "NEVER" "EVER" BE THE SAME WITH-OUT YOU,BUT I "THANK" "GOD" FOR YOU,HE COULDN'T HAVE GIVEN ME A BETTER "MOM" YOU WERE AND ARE THE "BEST" TALK/WRITE TO YA LATER LOVE ME CINDY KAY "ROSE-BUD"...........